Fear

There comes a time where you get too attached and you can't stop it since that person becomes something crucial -like a medicine for hospitalized people- of your life. That's why I always afraid of getting too attached to someone, and now I realize my fear just get real. The fact they were always there for you and always gave you tons of attention - even as just “friends”. Always kept your secrets and gave you really good advice. There's a lot more trust put into that person because they were your friend first above all things, not some random ass guy you met.

Dear you, 
I am bad with words. 
People frequently misunderstood with my sentences. 
When I randomly say about A, some people get B. I can't explain it clearly. 
All I want to say is maybe we do something wrong. We both do this on purpose although we exactly know that it's bad. You know me that much but I don't. 
I have no courage to tell what exactly things I want from you and ask for things you want from me. 
For what it's worth, all that I need right now is just a long patience for waiting. 
What am I supposed to do when waiting is the thing I hate the most. 
So, should I just stop? 

"Maybe one day, I'll be what you need. But don't wait too long because the day you want me, maybe the day I've finally given up"

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